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Location: New York | omfg i had the worst week in the world horrible fights with my boyfrind while a hundred miles away from him i got arrested almost lost my job got sexually harrassed and my car broke down i keep trying to talk to my boyfriend about it and all he wants to say is u better not cut yourself truth is it is taking all of me not to do it he keeps checking me for cuts i did it once but im not satisfied with it i still feel on edge and stressed last time i tried not to cut i held off for a couple of days and one little thing set it off and i over did it all up my arms legs everywhere i looked like raw meat any advice im going crazy here HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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I'm so sorry you're feeling so stressed, hun. I wish I could give better advise, I've never been that great in that department, but we are here for you and I hope you feel better soon.
My suggestion is to write all your thoughts down - in a journal on here or in a private notebook. Making this post already prob helped a bit. Think of a few positives: you said you ALMOST lost your job, but you didn't, right? That's a good thing. And you're boyfriend is really sweet for even trying to help. I know it may get annoying, but I personally have never had anyone try to help. Everyone who finds out just thinks I'm loony and ditches me. I wish you wouldn't cut. It doesn't really solve anything. I know it makes you feel better for a short period of time, but then afterwards you are worse off because you feel guilty about it.
If you are feeling or ever start to feel suicidal, you should go to the A&E or ER immediately. Or call a crisis line. They are SUPER helpful. I hope you're doing alright <3 |
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| Wow it just sounds horrible...no one should feel like this. I am sending you some hugs.
I really wish I could give you constructive advise though...lol...not very good at it myself.
Maybe try to keep "over" busy just to keep your mind from wondering to cutting, I know it is hard, maybe exercise or go for a walk with your dog...mmmm...sounds corny lol
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Location: Scotland | I don't think what you said sounds corny at all Moonscar, I find walking my dog really nice and calming. I always go back home less upset/angry than I was when I left.
And like winterigirlx said, think about the positives :) your boyfriend is trying to help rather than calling you a loony and running off, and you did still keep your job. It might help to try and find someone else to talk to though, someone who won't keep bringing up your cutting like he does x |
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| Oh ur sounding very very stressed... BREATHE for you gotta take some time out of sh*t.
Try to breathe and try to calm yourself, it's going to get better but you gotta take a DEEP breath befor eyou think about stuff. Try not to go at it all at once. Take it a step at a time.
Good luck with stuff, take care of yourself |
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Location: New York | Thanks guys i was feeling a little better then i got more bad news the good thing is i didnt cut but i did burn myself sigh i do agree btw i love walking my dog. as for my bf he doesnt try to help i cant even talk what im feeling without hearing that or sometimes he will even throw it in my face like o go cut yourself i hate that shit he thinks i do it because of him and i dnt it pisses me off so much |
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Location: Massachusettes | I think many of the problems you have up there seem like things you can defiantly explore and attempt to fix. I've found if there's a problem really pushing me to cut, if I can fix it my self I don't feel the urge as bad. As for your boyfriend, I think you really need to re-explain that SI is not as easy as saying "I won't cut" :x I really hope you're doing better, stay strong<3 |
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hunni, I hope you're doing better....no one should pressure you to stop cutting like that! but he's sweet for caring about you, (I know how you feel, I hate it when my bf sees my scars)
stay strong! hugs |
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Location: New York | i know i just fought with him about and he just called me a stupid cutter im sooooooo pissed right now i keep telling him that its not as simple as just not cutting he doesnt get it hes like well y do u hide them if u do it dnt be a pussy about it and be proud of it show them to everyone cut ur face so everyone can see so i told him if i did that i would get ignorant people like him saying the same shit as he is telling me and judge me just like he does i told him hes never done it so he doesnt understand wat its like i dont understand why he asks me about it if all hes gonna do is yell at me and make me feel bad :(
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Location: lost in my head | Boyfriends can be so good when there good but bad when they are bad. It takes time, my boyfriend took ages to try and understand and he sort of gets it now but not really, but he tries. When my boyfriends found out he found every tactic under the sun to make to stop, he tried blackmailing, tried to cut him self, used to cry, used to be nasty, they just dont know how to cope. He obvi means alot to you and with time he will understand, im sure! Stay strong |
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Location: New York | thanks i hope he does soon him fighting with me makes it worse and he has done all of that too i guess ur right it kinda goes both ways they dont understand y we do it and we dont understand y they dont understand |
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Location: Australia | Oh sweetie,
I'm sorry you're having a rough time. I agree with UnevenCurls that boyfriends are good and bad and that sometimes they don't understand. Maybe you could try to explain to him again that SI isn't something we just stop because we want to or if they want us to. Or just give him some time, I'm sure if he means as much to you as it seems he will come around. Good luck with everything from work to your boyfriend. Much hugs darling. |
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Location: New York | well things are starting too turn around i got my car back and i had an awesome night with my friend but the whole time all i thought about was cutting myself??? |
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help!!!!!! horrible week
