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Location: Massachusettes | So, I thought I was doing really well. Either I could control a panic attack where I didn't have to cut, or when I did it was never deep. Well, tonight I kinda broke down. I got hit with a panic attack, and this one I just couldn't work my self out of. So, I did what I always did, reach from my scissors. they never leave anything bad. Just some bad cuts that don't bleed till morning. Usually, just 5 mins of me going at my leg(s) calms me down, but this didn't work. I couldn't get calm, I wanted them to actually bleed right then and their. So I went looking for a sharper pair of scissors, and couldn't find them. And I just got so angry and upset, I couldn't get my self out of my panic attack, I couldn't get my self to calm down, and I couldn't find anything sharp enough to do worse damage.
And then, some part of me just snapped back into place, and I got so scared when I realized I am losing control of this situation. And I'm honestly terrified. I have no one to go to because none of my friends know. (And most of which, I don't plan on telling, because I think I got some pretty definitive answers that I'd be considered an idiot) I really don't know what to do. I wanna stop, I really do, but I'm scared I'm past that point of no return. :/ | |
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Location: the Netherlands | I'm so sorry for you!!! I wish I could do so much more, other then giving you my support. Because I'm so terribly restless, the doctor is now prescribing me something to calm down a bit. Maybe you could ask your doctor the same? If that helps you not to hurt yourself, he must be willing to do this.
When there's really no one you can turn to, I'm hoping that we can be there for you, as friends, supports and a shoulder to lean on!!!!! 
Hang in there, I'll try to do the same!
Big kiss,
Cindy | |
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| Hey LLI That sounds horrible I agree with cindy - it sounds like it's definitely worth going to talk to a dr about panic attacks if you can. Take care  s*b
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Location: Australia | Oh sweety,
I want you to know that you are not alone. We are here for you and will help you in anyway we can. It's a big step that you are able to tell us here, is there someone you can talk to where ever you are? Maybe a parent or doctor? I agree with Cindy and s*b that maybe you need some calming meds to help you through this rough patch.
Keep strong hun
Love Arlette | |
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Location: lost in my head | Bless you, its ok to slip sometimes and to loose control, you just need to keep reminding your self how fabulous it is that you can normaly control your self and bring your self back, i am sure its hard but you can manage to do it! Just hold on to that! Look after you
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Location: Massachusettes | Thanks you guys. (: It's nice to know I have a place to turn to when I can't go to my friends for this. Thanks so much, to all of you. <3 I'm a lot calmer now than I was last night, but my leg is really sore. I'm defiantly going to look into cindy & s*b's Ideas. Earlier this summer I was supposed to go see someone about my panic attacks. I'll go talk to my mom about seeing someone, for sure. Thanks again! | |
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