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| I don't know where to draw a line between teasing/picking and actual bullying.
But For me personally it is enough now.
It's always me they wanna get after. Not because I'm ugly or becasue I'm a geek or because I'm not good at anything or because they are racist.
Just because they feel like getting me.
I had so many friends. But I managed to be left on my own which is probably my own fault. But they started turning to me and I didn't care as this is my last year... But come OIN I am 18 and I go to my locker and I cant get in there because there is sticky SHIT smeared all over my door and lock !
WFT is this place.... why me? and why them......
My mom always says they are jealous, but I know it's the simple thing to say so I just didn't tell her about this and lots of other stuff taht's been done to me.
My geo teacher actually came up to me to ask me if I was being bullied.
I said no.
I meant it.
But now?
I'm not sure anymore.. I guess I don't want to admit it? Because this is NOT supposed to be happening.
My entire family exists of popular and sociable and beautiful people.
I am a disgrace. |
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EMERALD
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Location: San Antonio, Tx | You are not a disgrace. The only people who are a disgrace to society are those who inflict pain upon others for no apparent reason, and trust me, bullying counts! I've delt with bullying a lot too, probably because I've always been so different than other people. Maybe a lot of that has to do with the way that I am now. A self loather with low self esteem.
Do you think that they realize what they're doing? A lot of times people just can't distinguish between what's a joke and what's serious. Maybe to them, being talked down to or messed with isn't that significant. Maybe for them, it's like water off a duck's back. But for me, I'm a hyper sensitive person, and I'm not ashamed to admit it. Everything gets to me, especially people's comments and actions. I tend to dwell on a lot of things.
But just know that it doesn't say anything about your character. Again, you're not a disgrace nor are you weak. Have you ever asked them why they do what they do?
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Location: Australia | You are definitely not a disgrace darling, nothing could be further from the truth. I have been bullied a lot and I think you are doing marvellously for putting up with this for so long but what they are doing goes beyond a joke. You are so right that you shouldn't have to go through it and it shouldn't be happening. There is something wrong with those bullies but there is nothing wrong with you, you are not a disgrace. Maybe sentenced is right and they don't know how and what they are doing is. You took a big step in telling us here what’s going on, do you have any friends there who you could talk to or could help you? |
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Location: Massachusettes | Oh, been there done that. I don't know how bullies do it, but they always know how to sniff out people they know will be upset when picked on. You will make it through this, you are NOT disgrace. Never let your self think that, that means they win. You know what you do that makes them terribly angry? Laugh it off, show that you're still happy. Do little things for your self, hang with friends, go shopping, etc. I found that any bully I encountered absolutely hated seeing me happy. Once they see that you've built an amour against them that they can't get past, they slowly stop.
But it is going to be a looong road, unfortunately. All you can do is stay strong, and smile. You will get through this, you're strong enough. (: |
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Location: Perth WA | bullying is one of the big reasons i am the way i am.....poeple used to tease me because i was fat and because i was different, not popular....im guess im lucky coz i have finished school now, even though i still get it at work sometimes....bullying has caused me to have a low self esteem and no confidence and all the usual stuff....
all i can say is dont let the bullies see that they are getting to you, because if they know that they are they will keep doing it....and yes stay strong, just count down the days till you finish school all together, believe me it helps :) |
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| Thank you all for sharing those personal stories.. Each and every one of you deserves the best and you're all SO strong.xx
I don't know why they're doing it and I'm not even sure who is doing what. But I do know I'm on my own against a lot of people and no, I don't have any real friends I can turn to for help. I have different people I hang around every week. I don't fit in anywhere but I used ot be popular and u know.. wanted.
I guess it started going downhill when I started cutting and started isolating. I lost friends and more friends. Until no one really needed me back. That's when I realised I never really had any friends. When I needed them.
But they left me alone.
Now it's those same poeple really that are doing sht to me...
So I can't really not care. I can't put off that feeling that it's all my fault because I genuinely think it is. I pushed them away first and if I didn't I would still be around people.
I would be happy - I would be pretending it and not be myself, yes, but I would have people. I have no one! It scares me.
Doesn't everybody have someone?
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| aww hunni, I'm so sorry all that happened! HUGSS!!!! you are stronger than you think you are...
You know what, you may have pushed your friends away first, but it was THEIR CHOICE not to still be your friend....frankly, they are the ones who should be sorry for losing such an awesome person as their friend.
stick it out! Highschool isn't forever (ur 18 right?) and you'll be moving on and meeting new ppl....hang in there!
stay strong!
(and btw, I never had that "someone" or even a best friend who would just listen and not judge until a just a couple wks ago...trust me, you are not alone)
Edited by CrystalTeardrop 3/10/2010 9:54 PM
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| Thank you crystalteardrop <3
Your reply made me smile :-)
I'm 18 indeed so I'll be gone from here very soon. It's just the perspective of the day to day view which is hard. The overall view is easy :-) |
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Location: lost in my head | I hated secondary school, i used to get bullied as well but i had a group of friends that stuck by me but i drew away from them because i thought they were to good to be my friends and i was usless. But as soon as i left and i went to collage and then Uni it all stopped and i when i got my degree i just thought to my self.........look what i can achieve even though u put me through that, sadly it gave me the motivatiton to keep going just to proove them wrong and show what i can do!!
Not long till you leave all those nasty people behind, keep your head down work hard and you will end up in such a postive place, and you can just look behind you and see those awful bullies still stuck doing nothing! Bullies hate people being happy and doing better than them, so just show them just how fabulous and brilliant you are! |
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